I have never felt my lack of romantic relationship so much
as when my little sister innocently assumed that I would have a date to her
upcoming wedding. . . in December. . . of THIS year!
Me who is in the midst of my “single” year. (knowing you are going to move states
mid-year AND start a new job made me decided on New Years that I would take
this year for myself.)
When I laughed and said that one of my best friends will be
my “date” she seemed perplexed.
But honestly it is nearing the beginning of September, and
while I am open to dating, I am not exactly putting myself out there.
If I so happened to find a great guy with in the next week
and we became serious, I STILL wouldn’t be comfortable with having him attend
my sister’s wedding a mere 3 months
later, a thousand miles away, with ALL of my extended family in attendance.
(Talk about pressure!)
The other reason I am perfectly happy being dateless to this
wedding, is that I am (FINALLY) a
Bridesmaid, and not just one in a line of them, but the Maid of Honor. And from
the relentless calls, texts, emails, and messages covering topics from gifts to
flowers to my dress I can honestly say I take this honor seriously. I don’t
want a date present that would need me for those pesky introductions, random
dances, and interference when the alcohol is flowing. I want to be totally
focused on the BRIDE. (yup that’s you tori.)
Some other occurrences that has made my status as a single
woman so blatantly obvious, is that almost everyone I have been interacting
with is in a relationship. (Except for my two best friends- but maybe that’s
why we are still really good friends)
·
My very own twin brother is still not divorced
from his (ill-timed, and inconceivable) shotgun marriage.
·
My mom is going to wed her 4th
husband, (a very nice man) at the end of September.
·
My little sister, only 19, is getting married in
December.
·
One of my coworkers is married
·
And the other one is going to be in January.
Needless to say at the end of the day I feel slightly
awkward going to my own apartment, alone.
But in the words of the great Kelly Clarkson
“Doesn’t
mean I’m lonely when I am alone.”
Plus I LOVE having my own space. . . :D
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