So I
realize that it has been awhile since I last posted, and here is why.
I wrote
this awesome post in the heat of a moment about dating, how my online trials
tend to fail miserably and how last year i had a short romance that changed
well everything. And then it disappeared. I had a lot of things open on my
computer and I must have clicked out without saving because the next day I came
to edit it and it had vanished. I decided then that it probably wasn’t a post
that should be posted.
A good
friend of mine over the break asked me some very pointed questions about my love
life and whether or not I am happy with this aloneness I have been in. And well this has made me reflect on my
choices.
Last New
Year’s I made three very specific resolutions in regards to my love life,
mental wellness, and goals for the year. All combined it led me to focus on me,
and what I needed/wanted out of life, and not get caught up in others (in a romantic sense). While this may sound very self-centered, I had
very valid reasons for not wanting to commit in the year 2012.
1st
off I was absolutely positive that I was going to be moving out of the current
state in which I lived in -> Georgia. Thus a romantic relationship would be
facing a pretty large hurdle in only a few short months.
2ndly
I was convinced (and
correctly so) that
my little sister was going to get engaged/married soon, and would need me to be
focused on her. Something that I really enjoyed.
3rd,
I became comfortable with being alone in all aspects, sleeping, eating, and
just generally being alone. There is nothing better than ending your work day
in your own apartment, with your own mess, and your own thoughts.
That
being said my new New Year’s resolutions are as follows:
1: Loose some of
this unhealthy-ness weight.
Whether it be in body, emotionally,
or even in friends.
2: Send more snail
mail.
Because who doesn’t love receiving real
mail in this time of emails, texts, g-chat, twitter, and Facebook messages? Also
this is a ploy for me to get mail besides bills, and credit card offers.
3: Become open.
This means that I need to get off my
ass and open myself up to more. As in dating. Making new friends. And getting out of my apartment. I hope to be
less content in being alone.
With that said I will gladly date any of the following people AND If you send me your address I will send you mail.